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Thursday, October 28, 2010

Hope Is

Hope is
July 31, 2010

You just rode away
On your black horse.
I sat in a chair with my hand
On my heart- that smiled-
Because touching your face
Holding your hand,
Wrapping myself around you
And hearing you say
“I love you with all that I am.”
Built something inside of me
That makes me stronger today
Than I was yesterday.

It shows me that God hears
My silent cries for help and
Proves that Hope is something
That we can see, and touch and smell.
Because when you arrived tonight,
You brought me my dreams.
And when you drove away,
They stayed with me- like a flower
Stays on the stem
Even when the wind is weeping
And the rain is screaming.

Tuesday, October 19, 2010

A Shakespeare Moment by Kathy T. Camp

A Shakespeare Moment
By Kathy T. Camp

           A man throws the ball. The little blonde-headed boy dashes across the green grass to catch a little white ball, as if catching it will save someone’s life. He reaches, jumps, stretches and grabs it in his glove-- the smile that emerges lights up my whole yard.
“Wow! That was incredible!” I say.
“O.K. Now run back a little. Get back a little further.”
The man throws the ball. The little blonde boy looks up, moving forward just a little, then stares at it long and hard. The ball drops in his glove. It’s as if his eyes are a magnet that brings the ball right into his leather-covered hand.
I hear the screen door slam and a little girl comes running outside holding a small paperback book.
“Mama, listen to this! I’m reading Romeo and Juliet.” She says while galloping towards me. When she stops, she adds, “Shakespeare’s good!” She begins thumbing through the book.
“I’m looking for the right page. O.K. Here it is. Listen to this. It  is soooo good!” She states.
She starts off with Benvolio’s line,
 In love? She pauses, Out.
 Of love?
Out of her favour, where I am in love.
Alas, that love, so gentle in his view,
Should be so tyrrr..annous and rough in proof.
She continues for a minute, not looking up from her book.
Then she pauses and checks to see if I’m paying attention.
 “Listen to this line!”
“I am, sweetie. I’m listening!” I glance over at her father who’s still tossing balls to our son.
Here's much to do with hate, but more with love:
Why then, O’ brawling love! O’ loving hate!
O’ any thing, of nothing first created!
O’ heavy lightness! serious vanity!
Mis-shapen chaos of well-seeming forms!
Feather of lead, bright smoke, cold fire, sick health!
Still-waking sleep, that is not what it is!—
This love feel I, that feel no love in this.
Dost thou not laugh?
- No, coz; I rather weep.
She looks up at me and states her opinion. “This is awesome!”
            Her brother hollers, “I didn’t understand it. What’s it about?”
She gives him a one sentence summary. “It’s about how bad love is!”
            Her father glances at me and says, “Yea, it’s about how bad it is.”
            The son runs, catching the flying white ball.
The daughter, stands beside me, reciting the lines again. I interrupt her.
“What’s your favorite line?”
She begins, “O heavy lightness! serious vanity!
Mis-shapen chaos of well-seeming forms!
Feather of lead, bright smoke, cold fire, sick health!”
She continues her reading, with lots of passion. Her face changes with each line, indicating a deep understanding of what she is seamlessly reciting. A grin breaks across my face and something inside of me swells to the point that I feel as if I am going weep.
“Watch this one!” the father states.
I see our son diving towards us, getting a little too close to the cement driveway, but he catches the ball and stops just short of a skint knee.
“Zebbie, that was great!” I exclaim.
He gets up and runs back again.
“O.K. I’m throwing it left.”
            The boy runs left, staring at the ball, jumping horizontal at just the right moment, and makes a catch that would make the cover of Sports Illustrated. I look at his dad. His smile is so big it looks like his cheeks are going to pop.
            He’s having his Shakespeare moment while I’m having mine… and we both know it.


Saturday, October 16, 2010

Dropped Dreams by Kathy T. Camp



You tell me 'be strong'
and I'm not sure what that means
Because I know what weakness means.
And I am all of that.

The deep holes- that I try
till fill with flowers and music
and stars, and sometimes
just tears, when nothing else will work,
keep me honest.
When I am weak,
I fall to my knees and hold
my chest to my legs
and let out the weakness,
while I pray to God
to hold me.

I think my strength
has been vaporized,
and this is a good thing,
because vapor goes into a million pieces,
just like my dreams.

They broke up
and fell around me into
small pieces.
Some of them I stepped on
and helped grind them into dust
where they returned to 
rubble. 
Some of them
were pretty, so I picked
them up and put them into 
my little draw string bag.

I am careful what I place
in my dream bag.
It is pointless to 
put dreams into a bag
that are from 
faraway fairy lands. 
I look at my dreams now
and hold them a while
in my tender hands
to see if their sharp edges
will cut me.

I know that some of those
dropped dreams
are meant to be picked up again
But they first must lay
next to rough stones and
be bathed in days of soft rain
to rub off the jagged edges.

When the pieces reflect
the light of some faraway
starlight or even a dim waning moon,
they will catch my eye
and I will, while wearing white gloves,
pick up the pieces.
If they still glow,
long after sun has gone,
Then, I will gently open
my little draw string bag
and place them next to my
other revived dreams
and pray that God breathes
His life into the dust that I carry
next to my heart.